The battle sucks!

Yeah, so I sounded like an ungreatful bitch in the last post. I know that there are millions of other people in the world who have it way worse than me. I've never thought that I was the most hard done by person on the planet, but we all have crappy issues in life, don't we? I wasn't bitching because I can't have the designer anything that I may want. I don't give a shit about designer crap! I'm not destitute or diseased, I guess I'm just fed up. I don't need constant affirmation, I just need some affirmation. I guess when you don't get any, a little goes a long way. Believe me, the last thing I expect to hear is...WOW you're looking really thin lately. That ain't gonna happen anytime soon! I'm guessing when you work with your BF and he's one of the bosses, but not your direct supervisor, that work inevitably streams into your personal life, I know it has for me. That's what gets me down the most, I just want to feel a little appreciated, not always criticized. It still makes me feel underappreciated and worthless a lot of the time, but what the hell am I supposed to do about it. You tell me!

The bigger battle

Not about the weight, about the life! Tonight is one of those nights that I feel like dying and couldn't give a shit about living, skinny or fat. Can someone just say something nice to me for once? I just want to hear that my life isn't worth giving up on, but right now I'm not feeling it. Just wish I felt appreciated at all, in any little way. All I want to say is FUCK IT ALL.

The battle that isn't

Well if you can't tell by the title, my battle is being won by the evil perfection that is beer. Damn it! I don't know what to do to motivate myself to stop drinking and start exercising. The drinking part is just so much more fun than the exercising. I have been trying to eat healthier, cutting out most of the fast food, but sometimes it's just too much work to cook. It doesn't help that the BF hasn't decided to join me on this crusade, I'm hoping eventually he'll comply. It's just so damn hard when he won't give up the beer either! Oh well, that's it for now, I ain't got nothin' else.

Exercise, Beer, Exercise

Well here we are on day 3 of the exercise campaign! I've managed to torture myself with the Wii Fit for 2 days until now, I wasn't sure if I'd be able to do it for 3, but I'm feeling good! I used to be in great shape, now I'm just a shape, I believe they call it round!! Been having a hard time giving up the sweet golden liquid, but I have cut down substantially, for me it's a victory!

In other news, I believe I went on the longest quest for Midol in my whole frickin life! You'd think the place called Shoppers Drug Mart would have basically every over the counter drug known to man or PMSing woman, not so much, I searched high and low, went down every aisle and guess what I didn't find...drumroll.......MIDOL!! So you can only imagine how bloody infuriating it is to a woman with a raging case of PMS that there's no happy pills in her future!

Off to neighbourhood drug store where I actually get my prescriptions filled (nice pharmacist doesn't charge me the dispensing fee!!) Guess what? That's right, no bloody Midol there either, I've now started to refer to it as the great Midol quest of '09! Wanna know the kicker in all of this?? Hmmmm...I bet you can't wait. I had told BF that I wanted to go to Wal-Mart after work, he put the big kibosh on the idea. That's right folks, I found my wonderful drugs at the place that has everything Wal-Mart. So it's a big "Suck on that one BF" hehe ;-), he thought he'd avoid the horrible trip to the WM, nice try, maybe next time!!

Happy Midol to all!

On-ish the wagon

It was inevitable, St. Patrick's Day would be a minor speed bump in the quest for less beer. Could have been worse, I could have drank all the beer after the BF (I think I have to come up with a better nickname than that) passed out, I mean fell asleep, yeah that's it! There is no doubt that I could've polished it all off, but I'm trying to be a better (less of a lush) girl. So back on the wagon we go, you can't blame a girl for wanting to celebrate one of the funnest non holidays of all time! I forgo the green food colouring, beer's just so damn good on it's own, why mess with perfection, right? So anyway, nothing exciting going on with the weight loss/alcohol purge front, still haven't decided about the gym thing yet, although my house is exceptionally clean (clean = lack of alcohol). I think I need a hobby or something, without the booze I have way tooooo much free time on my hands, what's a girl to do? Really! What the hell am I gonna do? I miss my sweet friend, we'll call him MC, I hope he doesn't feel like I've abandoned him!! But this I know, the people at the Beer Store are going to think I fell off the face of the earth. Another note, when you walk in and they don't have to ask what you're having, it's a sign and by sign I mean problem!

I'm gonna start something here, let's call it Things that piss me off, there are millions of them, I guarantee you!! So here's one of the latest ones that's been rearing it's ugly head a lot.

I present to you number 1 of many more to come!!

Please for the love of whatever you love and hold dear people, stop when referring to a loss of somekind, stop, stop, stop or I'll kill you, spelling it "loose" or any other variation i.e. "loosing"!!! I have seen this everywhere from people who seem well educated to the breathing challenged (the ones who have to remind themselves to breathe) STOP! Please for my sanity, pretty please???


Stay loose ;-)
Moiii

This and that

Hmmmm, don't know what to do with myself this morning. I think the lack of beer is making me retarded, I don't feel like I'll make it through the day. Anyway, enough griping. Haven't started the exercise yet, think the lack of wobbly pops will do for this week. Did the wonderful Wal-Mart trip last night, economic down turn doesn't exist there, too bad! I hate waiting in line at the check out, because I always seem to end up in the line with the most morons. Debit card machine, learn how to use it people!! It's not bloody rocket science, it's not a new technology, been around for a while now, if you don't know what the hell your doing, please use cash or your damn credit card!! And if you're using cash please don't start digging for the correct change unless it's something easy like a penny, nickel, dime or quarter, I don't have five years to wait for you to dig for it!

Wondering

How many people are getting directed to my site because they're looking for porn content...hehehe...fooled ya!

The Beginning

Well here we go!! The battle to stop being a fat ass, been too long since I can say I've been comfortable in my own skin. Have sworn off the evil goodness that is beer, and any other form of alcohol, but beer is my main issue. MMMMM beer, no beer bad!!! Let's see how long it takes me to lose the 50 or so pounds I've packed on in my wonderful quest for more beer. Haven't decided whether or not to join a gym of some kind, I have the workout DVD's & the WII Fit, now I just have to use the bloody things. Damn, why is it always easier to pack it on, and way harder to get it off. I figure 35 is a good age to start, not too late to maybe get the hotness factor back. Oh well, we'll see how it goes. I'll have to ignore all the beer that will be flowing at my house, I'm on my own on this one, the BF isn't ready to give up his love affair with the beer yet. Please let me have the strength to stay the course.